bakit?

Bakit kaya ganun?
kahit anong pigil natin s ating sarili
hindi natin mapigilan na hindi ma alala
ang isang tao o mga tao.
siguro dahil may malaking parte sila
sa buhay natin
o dahil mahal natin sila
pero hanggang kaylan natin sila kailangan
alalahanin?
hanggang kailan sila mananatili sa isip natin?
Siguro hanggang sa matanggap na natin na wala na sila sa buhay natin..

One day

One day may nag tanong sa akin "Kamusta?" siyempre ngumiti ako sabay sabing "okey lng". pero habang nag lalakad ako palayo sa taong nang tanong sa akin, na pag-isip isip ako. totoo kayang okey ako. Feeling ko im a lier. kasi ang feeling ko hindi nmn talaga ako okey. Pero bakit kaya ganoon noh? pag tinatanong tayo sasabihin natin okey tayo kahit ang totoo ay hindi. Dahil Siguro mas madaling mag sabi ng kasinungalingan kesa ipaliwanag ang totoong nararamdaman natin..
Ano sa tingin mo?

One Sad Journal

There's no easy way of letting go of the things that we love and the things that we learn to love. its hard when the time comes that we need to let it go no matter how much we treasure it. But no matter how much we try to let it go, Memories exists and we cannot run from the shadow of it. And damn those memories. I irritably ask myself "Why memories do exists?” And this kind of question I ask over and over coz it hurts me continuously. I know I should stop dealing with the past. Stop looking for what I’ve lost. Coz it will never ever happen again no matter how hard I try and no matter how much I love it.
But the pain kills me. The pain makes me crazy. Im trying my very best to face the world around me. Have a smile to cover up the pain I feel. For them to know am strong enough to let go. But deep inside me, Im not.
There's nothing permanent in this world. I know. And I know before, that time will come that we will walk separate way. And the time we spend together would come to an end. And that time is now. It’s time for me to let them go. To give them up. But still I can't, not for now.
I cry for the memories, I cry for the pain, I cry for the times that we spend together, the time that I had them. I know they are not mine to be kept. I know they need to grow and discover the world on their own. And I should not be selfish to hold them so much. But holding them keeps me going, makes me alive.
I hope they see the pain, the worries, the heartache, the tears in my eye just to let them know how much I love them and how much I want them being at my side. But I don't want to let them see it. I don’t want to show it. I just want to keep it. Putting some mask in my face is better that explaining everything. The tears are the only explanation of what my heart cannot say. For any feelings that I have they are not the one to be blame coz there's nothing to do with them. It’s about me.
It’s been a year now. But I don't know why do I still feel this why. Carrying all the burden, alone. I still fixing my broken heart and broken soul. I still pick up the pieces of myself. But I wish I can end all of this misery to find myself again, to be myself again. But not for now I guess, maybe some other time. Coz at this very moment my heart still aches in sadness. I still feel the pain.
Maybe one day, I can say I FINNALY OVER THEM and I FINNALY MOVE ON. Maybe somewhere my journey I can look back not missing them. I can look back without pain. And I know I can do it. I know I can.

I have to let you go

eto ay compo ko last year 2008
hahaha
wla lng


Intro: A-G (3X)





I.

A

My heartaches

G

And I can’t avoid it

A G

No matter how I’ve try

A G

I feel so scared

A G

Don’t know what to do

A

I try to smile

G

So others won’t see

A G

But tears has already fallen





Chorus:





A E

So I have to let you go

D Dsus

And forget all the memories

A E

The days I spent with you

D

I must let it go

Dsus

I have to let you go





(REPEAT THE INTRO)





II (SAME AS THE VERSE)

I was hiding this feeling

And it pains me everyday

It left me a wound

And its still there





(Repeat I)

(Repeat chorus)

Tell me! :D

e2 ay compose song ko.. dati.. hahaha...

Title: Tell me

Years past like days
the cold wind is blowing on me
the road im walking throught
is same as before

can i walk back again
when i suddenly turn my back on you
can i walk back to you
and have your heart once again

Chorus
Please tell me you feel the same way i do
tell me you want me to be there for you
tell you want me to hold your hands
tell me you love me
tell me you want me
and never let me go

Day and Day I hesitant
If your love is real
so i walk away
to make it feel

can i still back the day
when i leave you all alone
can i still find a way
and share the love we always had

Chorus
Please tell me you feel the same way i do
tell me you want me to be there for you
tell you want me to hold your hands
tell me you love me
tell me you want me….

i just can’t explain
the things i’ve done to you
i know that i was wrong
and inside of me knew
this feeling is true
that i really love you

Chorus
Please tell me you feel the same way i do
tell me you want me to be there for you
tell you want me to hold your hands
tell me you love me(2x)
tell me you want me(2x)
and never let me go….

Ang tagal kong nawala

whew! :D
ang tagal kong nwala...
dahil ako'y nag bakasyon sa probisya.
sa lugar kung saan makikita ang MAyon.
masaya nmn ang aking pagbabakasyon...

another one...

I feel so alone in my life
i couldn't show my self to anyone
hiding my self inside
and i don't know why
time passed so fast
i look the warmth everyday
but i never found it
i couldn't found it
I hid my self and then i cry
and i don't know why am being this way
maybe am just being so sensitive
or maybe am just being me

This is me...