Unsaid Thoughts

 I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, all the walks I want to take, all the books I want to read, and all the friends I want to see. John Burroughs

 I guess I am thinking too much this passed few days... I really don't understand why should I.. There are a lot of things that keeps my mind working 24/7 and I feel so tired. There are certain memories that linger in my mind, a kind of memories that I really love, a kind of memories that made me questioned if it will happen again and if I will be with the people I spend with. I knew this day will happen, I knew it when I found myself happy with them and I knew that I will really feel bad. But it was all gone and I can't put it back to life. For the next days, Next month and next year those memories will be shatter in my mind if I continue to stress myself about it. Memories are memories and it is something I can't change. But I hope I'll still spend some days with them to make my mind at ease. Somehow I am glad that I still have them and right now they are the people that put a big smile in my face and put  love in my heart. At this moment they are my happiness and a very memorable Christmas gift this year.

At some point when my mind is too occupied with those memories. I am so happy that  I found rope to hold on and be reconnected with few people that also once put a very big smile my heart and make me feel so love and right now I am incredibly thankful with the affection they show to me.And with that I think I am having my early Christmas gift. Despite the distance that we have they still there I know they were the best Christmas gift in my life.