Saturday, December 23, 2017

I am a Paradox

I am old by years 
But young by heart
I am sweet and nice
But i know when to fight
My feet sometimes get weak
But I can soar high like a kite
I live with so much pain
But covered it with a smile. 
People might not know
But let me say it loud, 
I am a paradox

Monday, November 6, 2017

Came Out from the dark

All these years I tried so hard
To keep myself be shed by light
Afraid of what the world may find
That I’m not the person they though I am

In the four corners I tried to confined
What I think and what is on my mind
Coz the world will never understand
All the things that run deep inside

But as I keep the person that I am
I lose myself and I broke my heart
This life will never be mine
Coz I keep the truth away from light

If the world will know what’s live within
They’ll find the demon I feed in fear
Would they embrace the person I turned to be?
Or will they walk away and leave?

In the darkness I hid my doubts
All my what-ifs,whys and hows
I keep on wearing my perfect mask
Coz I can't hurt the people that I love

But I grew tired living in the dark
I wish to see the rainbow in the sky
To be free and be love for who I am
I know it will start if come out from the dark

So this will be my greatest escape
Coz can't live with full of sorrows and regrets
This may take a big lift of faith
I know I'll be thankful I did this today.

Monday, September 18, 2017

Painting

The other week, we were asked who could write an inspiring story and I volunteered myself even though I’m not sure if I could even write something that can inspire other people. In the past days, I was thinking what I should write. To be honest, it’s hard to write something that isn’t your forte. I wasn’t really sure what to write until I stare at the painting on my wall.
Most people don’t know is that I've always been an art enthusiast. I love how artists communicate with people by their arts. For me, every painting has a secret message that only an artist can tell. While staring at the painting, I recalled my conversation with my friend who gave me the painting.
Almost 7 years ago, I saw that she was working on a canvas. I stared at it and realized that she was painting a woman sitting under a tree while watching the sunset.  It was beautiful, not just because sunset is my favorite, but because how she exquisitely mixed the colors in the painting. I didn’t know how long I am staring, but all I knew was I was so mesmerized to the point that it felt like I was the woman in the painting. I just stood at her back until she noticed me and asked me to sit next to her. 
“It’s beautiful.” I said, while I looked at the canvas with full admiration. “I envy you for having such talent. I wish I could paint something like that.” She smiled and replied, “Colors in the canvas are like people, Diane. Though, there are paintings that can stand out having one color.” She pointed out a canvas across the room painted in monochrome. “But isn’t it beautiful to have variances?” then her eyes focused back on her canvas.
I can’t help not to smile as I remembered working with different nationalities in Dubai five years ago. It was one of the newest and the smallest branch of Zaatar w Zeit back then. Working with different nationalities with different cultures, beliefs and languages was no easy feat. I realized that my friend was right about the beauty of having different variances. Because regardless of the differences that I have with my colleagues we able to work together and blend as a team to achieve something. We make our branch the leading branch in Dubai.


In our life, be it personal or work related, many people have different colors of personality and distinct talents or skills as each possess unique characteristics. If we allow ourselves to foster harmonious relationship with others, our life will be as meaningful as the story behind every painting.

Monday, August 7, 2017

ISFP Personality Profile


Every time na kumukuha ako ng personality test ang lumalabas ba type na personality ko ay ISPF or ISFP. Every since, na niniwala na ako na Introvert ako. Pero may as I grow old at dahil sa mga na e-experience ko eh pakiramdam ko eh nagiging Ambivert ako. But anyway, let me share what is ISFP para naman atleast makilala niyo ako ng konti dahil saktong sakto ito sa personality ko.

Introverted Sensing Feeling Perceiving
(Introverted Feeling with Extraverted Sensing)


The Artist

As an ISFP, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit into your value system. Your secondary mode is external, where you take things in via your five sense in a literal, concrete fashion.

ISFPs live in the world of sensation possibilities. They are keenly in tune with the way things look, taste, sound, feel and smell. They have a strong aesthetic appreciation for art, and are likely to be artists in some form, because they are unusually gifted at creating and composing things which will strongly affect the senses. They have a strong set of values, which they strive to consistently meet in their lives. They need to feel as if they're living their lives in accordance with what they feel is right, and will rebel against anything which conflicts with that goal. They're likely to choose jobs and careers which allow them the freedom of working towards the realization of their value-oriented personal goals.
ISFPs tend to be quiet and reserved, and difficult to get to know well. They hold back their ideas and opinions except from those who they are closest to. They are likely to be kind, gentle and sensitive in their dealings with others. They are interested in contributing to people's sense of well-being and happiness, and will put a great deal of effort and energy into tasks which they believe in.

ISFPs have a strong affinity for aesthetics and beauty. They're likely to be animal lovers, and to have a true appreciation for the beauties of nature. They're original and independent, and need to have personal space. They value people who take the time to understand the ISFP, and who support the ISFP in pursuing their goals in their own, unique way. People who don't know them well may see their unique way of life as a sign of carefree light-heartedness, but the ISFP actually takes life very seriously, constantly gathering specific information and shifting it through their value systems, in search for clarification and underlying meaning.

ISFPs are action-oriented individuals. They are "doers", and are usually uncomfortable with theorizing concepts and ideas, unless they see a practical application. They learn best in a "hands-on" environment, and consequently may become easily bored with the traditional teaching methods, which emphasize abstract thinking. They do not like impersonal analysis, and are uncomfortable with the idea of making decisions based strictly on logic. Their strong value systems demand that decisions are evaluated against their subjective beliefs, rather than against some objective rules or laws.

ISFPs are extremely perceptive and aware of others. They constantly gather specific information about people, and seek to discover what it means. They are usually penetratingly accurate in their perceptions of others.
ISFPs are warm and sympathetic. They genuinely care about people, and are strongly service-oriented in their desire to please. They have an unusually deep well of caring for those who are close to them, and are likely to show their love through actions, rather than words.

ISFPs have no desire to lead or control others, just as they have no desire to be led or controlled by others. They need space and time alone to evaluate the circumstances of their life against their value system, and are likely to respect other people's needs for the same.
The ISFP is likely to not give themself enough credit for the things which they do extremely well. Their strong value systems can lead them to be intensely perfectionist, and cause them to judge themselves with unneccesary harshness.

The ISFP has many special gifts for the world, especially in the areas of creating artistic sensation, and selflessly serving others. Life is not likely to be extremely easy for the ISFP, because they take life so seriously, but they have the tools to make their lives and the lives of those close to them richly rewarding experiences.

Source: http://www.personalitypage.com/ISFP.html

Saturday, August 5, 2017

Pointers for Review - MBA

Part I and Part II
  1. HR Management 
  2. Management Leadership Styles 
  3. Financial Management
  4. Financial Management vs Management Accounting 
  5. Marketing Management 
  6. Risk and Change Management 
  7. Investment Management
Part III – Research
  1. Nature, Purpose, Process
  2. Different between Qualitative and Quantitative Methods and their various data gathering techniques.
  3. Importance of review Related Literature and Techniques in synthesizing them.
  4. Application of the following statistical tools in research:
    • Pearson r Test
    • Chi-Square Test
    • Kendall’s Coefficient
    • Analysis of Variance
    • T-Test

Tuesday, August 1, 2017

Month of July

It's funny that I did not able to write something nung birth month ko. Anyhow, the whole month of July is amazing. Nakakatuwa kasi ang daming ngyari sa akin. There is an opportunity that open up for me at madaming bagay akong na experience. 

First, AMS open its door for me. thought, hindi ko pa pwedeng i-share dahil hindi pa naman siya finalized pero masaya na din ako kasi they gave me chance and I am looking forward to work with them. 

I am big fan of volleyball at isa isa mga gusto kong mapanood ng live is Alyssa Valdez and other former ADMU Lady Eagles. IT happened last July 9, I went to FilOil Flying V Arena sa San Juan. Nag karoon din ako ng picture with Valdez kahit na nakatalikod siya. It was a great experience lalo na at first time kong manood ng live na volleyball match at first time ko ding pumunta sa FilOil Flying V Arena sa San Juan. 

But it didn't stop there, dahil pag katapos kong makapanood ng volleyball for Premier Volleyball League (PSL) ay nanood naman ako ng Philippine Super Liga (PSL). Though, sa San Juan Arena din siya ginanap this event is different dahil championship game siya between Petron Blaze Spikers and  F2 Logistics Cargo Movers. To be honest, hindi ako fan ng PSL. i just decided to watch the game para ma experience yung championship game feels. Dahil nga sabi ko before my birth month start eh gusto kong ma experience yung mga bagay na hindi ko na eexperience dahil na din sa busy schedule sa work and school. And both teams did not fail me dahil sobrang ganda nung game na pinakita. in addition, i able to watch how Mika Reyes, Ara Galang, Aby Marano, Kim Fajardo and the rest of former and current Lasallian Players. Isa pa, napanood ko ding maglaro sila Aiza Maizo, Rhea Dimaculangan, Sisi Rondila, Bernadette Pons at iba pang volleyball players na sa TV ko lang na papanood. It was indeed a great experience for me. 

Of course, my special day came and it feels normal. hahahaha... It's special because it's my birthday but it just feels like the other days lang din naman. But anyhow, it's my birthday and i celebrated it on my own. Yes, you read it right. I celebrated it alone. 

The first thing i did was to go to church. I went to Baclaran church and attended the mass. I am a devotee of Our Lady of Perceptual help. when i was in college i used to go there every Wednesday to pray and lit a candle. After the mass ay dumiretcho akong pumunta ng Tagaytay na wala akong masyadong idea kung saan ako sasakay. dumipende lang ako sa mga na research ko at sa mga taong napagtanungan ko. Maayos naman akong nakarating ng Tagaytay at nakapunta sa pinaka destination ko which is the Sky Ranch. The reason behind ako pumunta sa lugar na iyon ay para lang ma experience yung Sky Eye nila. After kong na experience ang Ferris Wheel sa Chicago nag karoon na ako ng interest sa mga Ferris Wheel. Yung pakiramdam kasi na binibigay niya kapag nasatuktok ka is sobrang saya. Yung pakiramdam mo na you are higher than anyone else. Yung pakiramdam ko na you reach the top. After ng Sky Ranch ay dumaan ako sa Our Lady Of Lourdes Parish para mag dasal. It's my first time sa simbahan na iyon and as the old saying says na kapag first time mo sa isang simbahan pwede kang mag wish. At dahil naniniwala ako duon ay nag wish ako. Kung ano man ang wish ko, well, sa akin na lang yun. :D Dahil one day trip lang ako ay bumalik lang din ako agad ng Manila. But my day is not yet over, ng makarating ako ng Manila ay dumeretcho ako ng San Juan Arena para manood ng Volleyball game. Yes, nanood ulit ako. Around 6 Pm na ako nakarating ay hindi ko na masyadong na abutan ang first game but I able to watched the last game na yun naman talaga ang pinunta ko. It's a match between Lady Falcons and Lady Maroons. It was a close match between to collegiate rebuilding teams. After the match, i went straight to Shakey's kung saan kumain ako ng Pizza. Why Pizza? because it's my favorite food at isa pa dahil may Shakey's card ako ay may free pizza ako kaya kinuha ko. I ordered pasta and as well as ice cream. Nakauwi ako around 11 PM na and I can say na sobrang naging masaya ang araw ko at worth it lahat. it's a great experience and a great day for me dahil nagawa ko yung mga bagay na gusto ko at mag isa ako. I am alone but never lonely. 

People may ask, bakit ako lang. It's because it is my choice. gusto kong gawin ang mga bagay ng mag isa. Gusto kong maging masaya ng mag isa. Maybe you may thing i am too independent. yes, i am independent. Naniniwala kasi ako dapat kaya mong maging masaya ng mag isa para kaya mong mag pasaya ng iba. Kasi pag masaya tayo, yung happiness na nararamdaman natin will transcend sa mga tao at sa mga ginagawa natin. At isa pa, yung happiness we owe it to ourselves. We should make ourselves happy bago yung ibang tao. 

There are a lot of things happened nung birth month and I am hoping next year makapag out of the country naman ako. 

I can't promise to myself but I will try to make it happen. 

Monday, June 19, 2017

Be myself Again

I feel so lost.

I don’t when this all begun - just feel like nothing is making sense at all. The feeling of fears, frustration, and anxiety are all blending in one. I don’t know why and I can’t even explain why. One day, I wake up in the morning I just suddenly feel tired and drain.

I used to know everything. I used to have all an explanation in everything that I do and feel. I used to acknowledge all the feelings that I have within myself. I am so sure about myself. But suddenly I feel like my world is falling in a deep chaos and I don’t know what to do. I am no longer sure of anything anymore.

I lost the confidence I filled myself. I used to believe that I can achieve anything and everything. I used to think that I can walk straight to the top. That no one can ever stop me achieving what I want in life. But I don’t know what happened. I lost it all. I lost myself.

Now, I don’t know where to go. I don’t know which path I need to take. I’m losing my way and  I hopelessly hoping to find my way back.


To find myself and be myself again. 

Friday, June 16, 2017

Midnight thought


At 12 midnight while eating my sandwich bigla akong napatingin sa wall and it has a remnant of our old house. I smile and close my eyes while trying to remember how our house look like. I remember kung gaano kaingay at kagulo ang bahay. I tried to remember kung ano yung itsura ng bahay nung bata pa ako.  Luckily, there is a picture that flash in my mind.  Nakakatawa, kasi feeling ko noon sobrang laki ng bahay.  Natatandaan ko pa kung gaano ka laki ang kitchen noon.  I remember the old sala na kahoy pa ang sahig.  Well,  kahoy naman talaga ang sahig noon.  Yung magagalit sila mommy kasi nag tatakbuhan kami at maingay sa bababa.  Then,  nirenovate yung bahay nag karoon ng 3rd floor at inayos ang kwarto. Nakakatawa na parang hotel room ang bahay sa dami ng pinto. I remember how this house used to be home for me. But as years past, things changed.  The house was renovated again but my home did not survive. Unti unting naging tahimik ang maingay at magulong bahay. The warm feeling i used to felt in this house became cold. People started to leave and change. People start to make their own choice. This place starting send a foreign feeling i couldn't explain.  But there is one thing for sure this place is no longer the same.  It never feel the same. 

I look around me and sadly smile. My home turns to be house. Its empty, cold and lonely and i have nothing to do but to accept the tragedy that this is no longer my home.



Thursday, June 15, 2017

Dear Me

Dear Me,

You will go through some times when you want to give up. You’ll get tired being optimistic and you will wonder how it feels like to be pessimist. There will be time when you will start questioning things. You will get frustrated because you can’t find answers to your questions. There will be moments when you will feel drain from all your responsibilities.  You will get exhausted standing on your ground and prove your critics and naysayers wrong. There will be time when you will lose some of your friends because of your decisions and beliefs. You will go through dark times and you will find yourself wiping all night. 

But it will all pass. Everything will eventually be okay. Do not lose hope. Be strong. Just keep going no matter what will happen. You will eventually see light at the end the darkness. Just keep walking.
Along the way you will find answers to your questions. One day, you will find reason why things happened. Listen to all the things they say but do not let it affect you. Do not let it break you because you are wonderful person. Be the change but do not let the world change you to be someone you are not. Be proud and remember that there are people who love you unconditionally without doubts and second thoughts.


Someday, you will understand but not now not today. So be happy, because you deserve to be. You are worth all the happiness in this world. 

Friday, May 19, 2017

Perfectly Projected

I always want to play the role of a strong individual person. I always want to be the tough and rough one. I always want to be the person who can do everything with perfection.  That Failure and rejection are the least thing that I can accommodate. 

I always choose to be on the go. I always want to be the person that people can count on. I want to be the person that can wipe their tears away. I always want to be their shoulder to cry on. I always want to be the person who help.

But what if, i am no longer strong? What if i became weak? what if, i am no longer be the kind of person they think i am?  What if, i can no longer help? 

Will there still be someone who will choose to be with me?

People only see want I want them to see. I put a thick line between what I want them to know and what i truly know. I created a perfect image of myself. Strong, achiever, confident and intimidating persona. They only see the mask of perfection i always put on. But behind those mask, lie a different story. The truth, genuine and the different me.

I hide all the miseries and failures. I healed my own pain, guarded my own heart, laughing out my sadness and fears. Crying out alone because of my broken dreams. I fully understood, that no one will understand because this world are full of hypocrite, self-centered and judgmental. So i choose to pretend and hide my true self.

I hide the moments i feel so lost and I need someone to show me the way. The moments I cry and i need someone to wipe those tears away. When Im hurt and i need someone to help me heal the pain. When Im confuse and i need someone to help me figure things out. when My mind is clouded by doubt and uncertainties and i need someone to hold the torch of light so i can keep on going. 

But what if I can no longer hide the truth? What if i get too tired of pretending? What if i start saying no? What if i start saying I can't ?  What if I can no longer be the person that they used to know? What if I will completely open myself to them? What if they find out how broken I am inside?  What if i start choosing myself first before them? 

Will there be someone who will accept me? Will there be someone who will stay with me? Or will I be let go because i can no longer play the heroine who can do everything?

Those questions hunt me like a prey. Those what ifs are like guns ready to kill. But I choose to push those questions at the back of my head and keep it to the darkest part of my being. Because i don't have the courage to reveal what is behind my facade. I do not have the guts to answers their whys. I cannot face rejection from other people. I am terrified to hear their answers.

So I put everything behind my perfected projection. I conceal my true self at the shadow of my perfect image. But i cannot hide the truth from myself, I cannot hide what i truly feel, I cannot escape from what i really need and i cant hide who truly i am.





Monday, April 24, 2017

Daraga Church: History and the view of Mayon Volcano

The Daraga Church, also known as Our Lady of the Gate Parish Church or the church of Nuestra Senora de la Porteria is situated on the top of the Sta. Maria hill Daraga, Albay. It is one of the most visited churches in the Philippines and serves as one of the major churches in the province of Albay. It was built in March 1773 by Franciscan Priest. The church was made of volcanic stones and the structure of it is based on Baroque-Rococo structure because it has a belfry on the side and a convent on the other side.

After Mayon volcano erupted in 1814, the residents of Cagsawa transferred to Daraga  after their houses and properties in Cagsawa, Albay and the nearby towns were destroyed including the Cagsawa Church.

During the Second World War in 1945, Japanese soldiers used the church as their headquarters and it was heavily damaged by joint American and Filipino military bombers but it was reconstructed in 1971 – 1973. 

In October 29, 2007, the Eastern and Western façade, Bell Tower and Baptistery of the Church was declared by the National Museum as National Cultural Treasure.


With the help of government agencies like the National Historical Commission of the Philippines and the National Commission for Culture and the Arts, the church undergo in rehabilitation to protect and prevent the façade from rapid deterioration and to preserve the church's cultural and historical significance it was covered by lime coating/protective covering (white color).




How To Get There:

If you are in Legazpi City, Take a Daraga-Legazpi jeepney route and ask the driver to bring you to Daraga municipal hall. From the Daraga Municipal Hall, take the stairs that will lead you up to the church.It may cost you Php 10.00 per person. Aside from jepneey,  you can also ride tricycle but the cost may vary depending on your location. 

Thursday, April 13, 2017

Kawa Kawa Hill and Nature Park in Ligao City



Kawa-kawa Hill and Natural Park is one of Bicol's tourist spot and it is located at California Village, Barangay Tuburan, Ligao City. It is 25 hectare and owned by Fernando Gonzales.

On your journey to the top of the hill you will see life-size images of the Station of the Cross which makes it a perfect place for reflection especially during Lenten season. Aside from that,  Divine Mercy Shrine and Carmelite Monastery is situated at the foot of the hill.








Luckily, during my trip I had a chance to see nuns praying on the right wing of the church.








The admission is free and there are a lot of refreshments available on your way up. There are also available restaurant and food stalls. 

(Pictures of the statues)


Once you reach the top of the hill, you will see a breath taking view of Ligao City. There is also sunflower garden, which I honestly enjoyed since it's my favorite flower. This place is definitely breath of fresh air for those who wanted to be away from the city.






How to get there

To get to Kawa-kawa Hills, you may take a jeepney from Legazpi City to Ligao City and it may cost around Php 40 per person. You may also take a jeepney that goes to Polangui. Just tell the driver to drop you off to Seventh Day Adventist Church in Tuburan or just tell him your going to Kawa-Kawa Hill, from there, take a tricycle that will take you to the base point of kawa kawa hill, fare is at Php 8 per person.

Saturday, April 1, 2017

To Mr. E.V

I never expect na makikita ko siya ulit after so many years. To be honest, he is one of the few people na hindi ko gusto kong makita o maka salubong man lang. But even I feel a bit awkward seeing him still I managed to compose and carry myself. Due to the fact that he is older than me I smile at him out of respect. Since I really don’t want to be in the same room with him kinausap ko na kaagad yung dapat kong kausapin. But he keeps on talking to me na pinilit ko namang sagutin in best way I can. Since we are not the only person inside the room he keeps on mentioning yung connection naming dalawa. I was his student and he used to me my teacher. I don’t want to assume and since I do not completely pay attention sa kung ano man ang sinasabi niya pero ramdam ko sa boses niya nung sinabi niyang estudyante there is a sense of pride on it. Sino ba naman ang mag aakala na kukuha ako ng Master’s Degree?

I did not bother to interfere kung ano man ang pinag uusapan nila dahil wala naman akong pakialam. Ni hindi nga ako nakaramdaman ng kahit katiting na saya nung pangalandakan na estudyante niya ako. Kahit obvious na wala akong interest sa kung anong sinasabi niya ay panay pa din ang tanong niya sa akin. Asking me to organize a reunion, about friend’s life and he even asked me to get married. But I simply dismissed the topic.  

And since hindi naman siya ang dahilan ng pinunta ko nag focus na lang akong kausapin yung secretary ng Grad School. Pero nakuha niya yung atensyon ko when I heard him say something hindi ko siya pinapansin. I honestly want to smirk at him that exact moment. Kung alam lang niya, ni sa panaginip hindi ko siya gustong makita.

Bigla kong na aalala yung sinabi sa akin noon ng kaibigan ko. That I should not hold grudges towards him and I should learn to forgive and forget. Pero tulad ng sinabi ko sa kaibigan ko I already forgive him for what he did but I will never forget what he made me felt.

Tuwing na aalala ko yung ginawa niya kasabay din nung bumabalik lahat ng naramdaman ko. Kung paano niya ako hinatak sa kwelyo at kinaladkad sa lobby.  I was terrified. Wala akong magawa kung hindi umiyak.

I can say he was a good teacher. He taught me that I have to be strong in order to survive. He made me realized na kung ipapakita mo ang emosyon at kung ipapakita mo na mahina ka kakayankayanin ka ng mga tao. It made me realized that I should never put my guard down, that I have to be smart and to be a big thing so that no one will belittle me. He was good for teaching me that lesson, too good that I despise him. He filled my heart with so much hatred that took me months abolish.
Pero tapos na yun, it has been more than 10 years since it happened.  Even though it is still clear in my mind I know one day I will forget about it and I know one day makakalimutan ko din kung yung panliliit na naramdaman ko sa sarili ko noon.


But there is one thing for sure, wala akong sasabihin at wala akong gagawin and he will forever wonder why I am acting this way towards him and that would be my sweetest revenge.

Friday, March 31, 2017

To my Bro. Mutwald

I used to love you. I can still remember what I felt those days. You were my world; you were my sunshine and you are my happiness. You made me felt that everything is okay. You made me felt I am important that my life made sense. You used to be my everything and I never knew I could feel so deeply for you.

But you left and broke my heart. You left me with scars that will never fade away. You cause so much pain and I didn’t think I’d ever be okay, I didn’t think I could be okay, I didn't think I would survive the pain. It was worst kind of feeling. It felt like I was left alone in the middle of the dessert to starve and die alone. I was terrified by the pain and how it made me.

I became completely different person. I threw all the things that make me who I am. I pushed people away and built up high walls around me. I longed for your presence and I wanted to hear your voice but you weren't there. And I couldn't hold back the tears and the pain just hit me like a dagger through my heart.

But I couldn't blame you. I couldn't blame you for leaving me alone, for the scars, for the tears and for the pain I had. I can't because I understand why and I wish I didn't so it would be easier for me to just hate and forget you.

But I couldn’t move when you left because you took a part of me and I realized that I'll never be the same as before I loved you. I wished that you are still beside me, smiling at me telling me everything will be alright.

I was consumed by the pain and it became my own self-destruction. My friends and family doesn’t know about a single thing. I made them see a beautiful façade. They didn’t know that beneath of the façade I am slowly breaking within.

It took years for me to finally save myself, to pull myself out of a great depression and stop myself from inflicting so much pain.

There are lot of things that happened but I never blame you and I will never blame you for that.
But there are a lot of things I learned. And thank you for making me realized that the only person that can save me is myself and that I should not depend my happiness to anyone. And most especially I learned to love myself enough for me to walk away from someone who gave me so much pain and heartaches.  

And I am sorry, that on the process of fixing myself I had to pushed you away and burn the bridge that connects us.

I had to do what I think is best for me. I had to let go of the memories that makes me crave for your presence.

Losing you made me realized that no matter how much we wanted something, it may not always meant to you. That no matter how hard we try some things it will never change and will never happen.  

I realized that sometimes we need to lose ourselves so we can fix ourselves to be stronger and better person.  

I still always remember you but I no longer know who you are. We both changed in many different ways that made us strangers. But I wish you knew how much you meant to me and how you made me feel. I wish that you knew that no matter what happened you still occupied a special place in my heart and for sure it will never change. I wish I can tell you all of this, but I think it wouldn’t matter.

I loved you. That will never change but I guess this is where we belong ----- away from each other.  

Saturday, March 25, 2017

COST-VOLUME-PROFIT

Since nahirapan akong mag hanap nito. I will post this. hahaha :D

This was the problem given to us by out professor. I hope this will help sa mga students na nahihirapan sa accounting.

I include my computation. :D 

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Columbus Hospital operates a general hospital but rents space and beds to separate entities for specialized treatment such as pediatrics, maternity, psychiatric etc. Columbus charges each separate entity for common services to its patients like meals and laundry and for all administrative services such as billings , collections. All uncollectible accounts are charged directly to the entity. Space and bed rentals are fixed for the year.

For the entire year ended June 30, the pediatrics department at Columbus hospital charged each patient an average of P65 per day, had a capacity of 60 beds, operated 24 hours per day for 365 days , and had revenue of P1,138,800.

Expenses charged by the hospital to the pediatrics department for the year ended June 30 were:

Basis of Allocation:

                                                                              Patient Days                    Bed Capacity          
Dietary ………………………………………....…P42,952
Janitorial………………………………………………………................…P12,800
Laundry……………………………………….......P28,000
Lab, others ……………………………………......P47,800
Pharmacy ………………………………................P33,800
Repairs and maintenance …………………............P5,200 ……………….P7,140
General administrative services .......................................................…........P131,760
Rent ………………………………………………………………………..P275,350
Billings and collections ……………………...........P40,000
Bad debt expense …………………………............P47,000
Others ………………………………………..........P18,048 ………………P25,980
Total  ………………………………………............P262,800……………..P453,000

The only personnel directly employed by the Pediatrics Department are supervising nurses, nurses and aides. The hospital has minimum personnel requirements based on total annual patient days. Hospital requirements beginning at the minimum, expected level of operation follows:

Annual Patient Days
Aides
Nurses
Supervising nurses
10,000 -14,000
14,001 - 17,000
17,001 - 23,725
23,726 - 25,550
25,551 - 27,375
27,376-  29,200
21
22
22
25
26
29
11
12
13
14
15
16
4
4
4
5
5
6

The staffing levels below represent full-time equivalents, and it should be assumed that the Pediatrics departments always employs only the minimum number of required fulltime equivalent personnel. 
Annual salaries for each class of employee follow: supervising nurses, P18,000 ;nurses, P13,000; and aides, P5,000. Salary expense for the year ended June 30 for supervising nurses, nurses, and aides was P72,000, P 169,000 and P110,000, respectively.

The Pediatrics Dept. operated at 100% capacity during 111 days of the past year. It is estimated that during 90 of these capacity days, the demand average 17 patients more than capacity and even went as high as 20 patients more on some days. The hospital has an additional 20 beds available for rent for the coming fiscal year.

1. The variable expense per day is
a. 15.08
b. 12.50
c. 15.00
d.50.00

Variable cost per patient day = Total Variable cost for the year / total patient day
262,800/17,508 = 15

No. of patient days = Total Revenue for the year/ revenue per patient day
1,138,800 / 65 per day = 17,508

2. The Contribution margin per patient day is
a. 49.92
b. 52.50
c. 50.00
d. 52.00

Contribution Margin = revenue/patient day – variable cost/patient day
65 per day – 15 = 50 per patient day

3. How many patient days are necessary to cover fixed cost for bed capacity and supervisory nurses?
a. 9,500
b. 11,500
c. 12,500
d. 10,500

Fixed costs for bed capacity                                    P 453,000
Salary, supervisory nurse                                              72,000
Total                                                                     P 525,000

Number of patient days required to cover fixed costs for bed capacity and salaries of supervisory nurse
525000÷ 50            =                                                  10,500

4. The number of patients days need to cover total cost
a. 14,200
b. 15,200
c. 15, 820
d. 14, 220

First Range:
Fixed costs based on capacity

453,000
Salaries:


Aides  21 x 50,000
105,000

Nurses 11 x 130,000
143,000

Supervisor 4 x 180,000
  72,000
320,000
Total

773,000

Breakeven calculation:  773,000÷ 50               15,460

The calculated breakeven point of 15,460 is invalid because the number falls under the second range wherein the amount of fixed costs that had been used are not relevant to that range.


Second Range (Final calculation):
Total fixed cost,                                                                                     773,000
Additional fixed cost:
1 aide                                                                     5,000
1 nurse                                                                 13,000
Total                                                                        791,000
Breakeven in patient days:
791,000 ÷ 50                                                      158,240

5. If the pediatrics department rented additional beds and all other factors remain the same as in the last year, what would be the increased in revenue?

a. 99, 450
b. 87,750
c. 105,450
d. 89, 750

Additional revenues if 20 beds are rented:
90 days @ 17 patient days x 65                               99,450



6. Continuing to consider the 20 additional rented beds, the increased in total variable cost applied per patient is

a. 22,935
b. 22,950
c. 22,965
d. 23,935

Increase in variable cost should be calculated based on additional patient days for 90 days at P15 per patient day.

17 beds x 90 days x P15                                                     P22, 950


7. Refer to the information given in the problem. What is the increased fixed cost for bed capacity, given the increased bed number of beds?
a. 151,000
b. 173,950
c. 147,000
d. 152,000

The increase in fixed cost based on bed capacity:
453,000 ÷ 60 x 20                                                      P151,000


Wednesday, February 8, 2017

Smile


I used to hear people say that they love the way I smile. That whatever circumstances that I am in, I just keep on smiling. I believe that it is a distinct feature that they will always remember about me.

I think, smiling and optimistic are words that will always be linked to my character and personality.

I always smile and chose to see the bright side of everything. It is not just important but it is essential to my being. For me to be positive every time I face fear, doubt and pain. For me to lift the spirit of the people who matters to me and for me to show the world that nothing can put me down.

This is always been my façade. You may blame my parents, my environment, my upbringings but this will always be the way I will face and see the world.  I will face it with smile and optimism.

I always want to be the kind of person who can lift the moods of others. I want to be the kind of person that they can rely on at times of need, at times of fear and defeat. I always want to be the kind of person that my friends can run to when they need a shoulder to cry on and ears to listen. I want to be the kind of person who can make people laugh at times of stress and troubles. I want people to believe that rainy days are not forever that at the end of it there is a rainbow to look forward too. I want them to see that in this cruel world we can look forward to good things and good people.

But sometimes it’s hard to be this kind of person. Sometimes it is hard to be a walking positivity when your head is filled with negative thoughts. It’s hard when you start to feel doubt and start to question things around you. It’s hard when you want to help other people but you also need a hand to hold. It is hard to be the kind of person that I am.

It’s hard when people used to see you smiling and happy. It’s hard when they are used to see you as a strong person simply because they will never ask if you are okay. They will not understand when there will be tears falling on your eyes. They will never understand when you need time and air to breathe. They will not understand when you have doubts, when you lose your self-confidence, when fear is consuming your system, and when you fail and broken.

These negative thoughts can put me on the edge but it will never die down the bright side of me. It is honestly tiring, to be the person that people expect me to. But still, the positivity, optimism and happy thoughts are always part of my existence.


I am not perfect and I will never be one. There will be a lot more things to learn, things to change and will never change. But I will always be someone who wants to smile and laugh. I want to be someone that can bring happiness and light to those who need it. I cannot change the world but I can make a difference to those people around me by simply being me. 

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